I wrote the following on this day last year. On this day two years ago, life as I knew it changed forever, and 730 days later, I’m still searching for the new normal.
I had every intention of writing a new piece today, to commemorate this auspicious day in history, but after re-reading the 2011 post, I’m going to re-run it. While I fully expected that one year out from diagnosis, things wouldn’t be back to normal–especially considering the circuitous path my cancer “journey” took — I would have expected that by year 2, I’d be done. But alas, with cancer, we are never done. I know this to be true, yet I want it to be different and thus, keep finding myself banging my head against that same wall, while the wily beast that is cancer mocks me. Bastard.
Happy 2-year cancer-versary to me.

The Pink Underbelly

One year ago today the bottom fell out of my carefully-ordered life when I was diagnosed with breast cancer.

To say that a lot has happened in the last year is an utter waste of words. I’m not sure there are words to convey how much has happened in the last year; if there are, they are reserved for better writers than I.

Being diagnosed with cancer at age 40 is a shock. Duh. It’s scary and unexpected and unnerving. Double duh. 40 is when we hit our stride. For me, it meant my kids were old enough to not need constant supervision but to still need my guidance. I’d recently discovered tennis, the new love of my life, and had time and freedom to play often. I had a tight circle of friends who knew who they are and where they want to go. I was very comfortable with…

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  1. Eddie says:

    No, we are never done, be it cancer, age or just life in general. We just getter better or we get worse. You are most definitely getting better. Happy(?) cancer-versary.

  2. David Benbow says:

    I knew today was your cancer-versary and I meant to send you a note congratulating you on your continued progress, but forgot to do it early this morning. Bad David.

    You continue to inspire me with your writing, wit, and strength. Thank you.

  3. Christy says:

    This calls for a drink! Let’s celebrate life! 🙂

  4. gozzygirl says:

    Hey Nancy, I don’t know you personally, but if I ever make it to Texas, I’ll look you up and take you out for a drink. About a year ago, you found my blog and then I started following yours. My second year anniversary is Monday and still don’t feel like it’s far enough behind me either.

    I’ve enjoyed your witty posts and your determination. I wish you happy and healthy times ahead.

  5. elizabeth connolly says:

    Happy (2nd)cancer- versary. You are a survivor and you are living your life with gusto. And that’s something to celebrate. Love

  6. Cindy says:

    I was just diagnosed on 4/10/12. It was by far the most terrifying moment of my 43 years so far. It is in two lymph nodes, but today I received my PET scan results and thank God, the cancer has not spread to any organs! I’m gearing up for a double mastectomy and chemo. Please keep me and my family in your prayers.


    • Cindy, You will be in my thoughts… there is such a sense of community and support in the blogs. You are on The Runaway Train. I just got my 5 yr post chemo “all clear” …. There is life on the other side. It’s not the same, but eventually you will take charge of that train. I wish you well.

    • Cindy, I will be thinking of you as you gear up, and I’m celebrating the clear PET scan. Hooray for clear scans! Let me know how you’re doing, ok?

    • Kathi says:

      Cindy, it’s just not right that you were diagnosed on my birthday. That should not be allowed. Prayers & thoughts to you. I just celebrated my fourth birthday after cancer & I wish us both many more birthdays.

  7. Mandi says:

    Good job on cancer-versary number two. May there be many many more ahead. 🙂

  8. Hugs and love to you, my friend! It seems this week is filled with dates that mean something to so many of us…. Congrats on passing the two year mark….. I’ve been running my big mouth of late… the new cry: “It really doesn’t get easy. It just gets easIER.” Love to you!

  9. PinkHeart says:

    As I said before, your cancer blog is my fav. I’m still cursing the BC bastard, too, especially as I type with nasty surgery drain sewn in my side from surgery #2 and loaded on oxycontin. I’ve had great care, but a few of these med professionals have said some things that I have thought “boy, Nancy would have a hay day with them over THAT comment, wish she could be here as my bedside advocate.” 🙂 DH does love and support me, but he nods his head up and down and accepts anything said to him by any med staff, therefore disqualifying him as my medical advocate. Best of best wishes to you in kicking cancers butt!

    • Ok, PinkHeart, you made my day with your lovely comment. Thank you. I’m hating that you are accompanied by a drain and the pain pills, but I know you’ll get through it. I’m honored that you think of me when medical peeps say outlandish things! I’d happily be your bedside advocate!

  10. Happy cancerversary my dear..I remember meeting you online when you were starting out on this journey and look how far you have come. Love to you. Marie x

  11. Kathi says:

    Hey, I was still too fatigued to say much of anything on my two-year cancerversary. Besides, Cancer Vixen says it all. Congrats & many more, I hope.

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